1. Barb believes in a loving God who will not damn her, she hopes. She needs to be in heaven to look after her children, and Nikki will never manage by herself. ( Barb regards Marene as one of the children for these purposes). The children would cry in Heaven if she were not there, and God would not let that happen. And then she thinks that perhaps God might let her into Heaven for the sake of the children, but that Bill might be in serious trouble. Could Heaven be Heaven for her without Bill there? She cries and she prays and she cries, and she hopes that her tears are her best prayer. 2. Barb does many things for the sake of her marriage and her children, and the hardest thing is pretending that Nikki can cook. Nikki is good at a lot of things - she can mend machinery almost without looking at it - and she approaches a pot roast or breakfast pancakes the same way that she fixes things. And you can't make a cheese souffle with a socket wrench and a screwdriver. 3. If Roman Grant ever asks for one of the children, for himself or his son, Barbara wilk kill him, whatever the cost. It is one of the decisions she made back when she got better from cancer and is one of the things she thinks God let her stay in this world to do.
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Date: 2007-05-20 08:23 pm (UTC)2. Barb does many things for the sake of her marriage and her children, and the hardest thing is pretending that Nikki can cook. Nikki is good at a lot of things - she can mend machinery almost without looking at it - and she approaches a pot roast or breakfast pancakes the same way that she fixes things. And you can't make a cheese souffle with a socket wrench and a screwdriver.
3. If Roman Grant ever asks for one of the children, for himself or his son, Barbara wilk kill him, whatever the cost. It is one of the decisions she made back when she got better from cancer and is one of the things she thinks God let her stay in this world to do.