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[rozk]

Oh, and I am up for that meme where you ask me to tell you three or more things about my private personal fanon for characters in shows, comics, films and books that I care about. Shows, right now, would be Jossverse, Grey's, Betty, Heroes, Nip/Tuck, Dirt, Big Love, and so on.

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[callmesandy.livejournal.com]

Buffy herself!

[rozk.livejournal.com]

1.Buffy knew that Angel loved her, and also knew that what he loved was the drama involved in loving her, the whole duty/honour/love thing and the slayer/vampire thing. Giles once said that it was poetic, in a mawkish sort of way; actually, he must have said it more than once, because he told her he had said it to Angel. She also knew that he loved Cordelia more than he loved her, and that he loved Darla more than either of them. He loved the idea of what loving Cordelia could make him become; he loved the scent of Darla's undead breath and the touch of her hand and her nails in his back and that irritating breathy voice telling him to move faster or slower. She was aware that she thought about all this far too much.
2. If Buffy didn't love Spike, it was because Angel had left her unsure of what love was. Sex with Angel was one time that made her weak and cry and ended in disaster; sex with Spike was time after time pounding away and anger and desire and pleasure and the smell of dirty leather, hairbleach and old cigarettes in her nose. After she died and came back, she was not the girl who loved Angel; she wasn't ready to love Spike, but he was the best way of passing the time she ever found.
3. Looking back on it, she realized when they met again, that she had been completely clueless about Faith. She had really thought that drawing a heart with a stake through it on a breath-steamed window was just a cute way of saying come slay. She didn't get why Faith went evil, why Faith wanted to steal her body. She kept thinking now that sometime they should talk, but the embarrassment involved meant being fearless in ways she wasn't ready for yet.

[callmesandy.livejournal.com]

Oh, awesome! Thank you!